Max for tag name
Nique for calling
15 already
13th Jan
PCPS- 1A, 2A, 3C, 4C, 5B, 6B.
NYGH- 1/4, 1/9, 2/9 3/13

ALIVE AGAIN

Hey!

I haven't bloged in a long time..
But that's not the main reason I'm blogging again.

I had a match ytd for the T-net cup against Zheng Hua. We won 47-13 I think.
It was like the 1st official match after what-months? yeah.. So basically, I was really excited and happy and glad and elated and... well, all the positive-happy emotions. Haha.... seriously, you can't deny that after being deprived of a proper match for so long, you won't feel elated at all.

I have always question my feelings towards basketball. I mean, being in the sport for like... 7 years I'm bound to feel something about it. When other people ask me why I joined bball, my first thought would be - I had no choice. It has always been like that. Then I would say, because I like it. But everytime I say that, it felt more of a "model answer" than what I really felt about bball. I have never truly felt passion for bball that sustains long. The feeling only surfaces occationally.

Sometimes I wonder what the heck and why the hell am I doing it for. Training just seemed like physical and mental torture to me at times. I tried to convince myself that it is for the best but somehow, it just couldn't get in. I look at my teammates and wonder what is it that anchors them deep down so much that they would do almost anything to torture themselves. Then I look back at myself. Why do I resent? More importantly, why do I resign after that?

It had never occured to me until yesterday during the match, at the peak of my emotions. The joy and satisfactory you get from scoring every goal, from performing well, from winning... They give you a boost, a boost that tells you what you have worked so hard for and what you had been through to get it. Then, it is also the boost that made me realise that... actually, I do like the sport. I thought back to the times I felt like this and found that this is what I am doing for. And my friends out there, my teammates and many more. It is because of bball, I get to know so many people, and so many of them are what you would call "stars" of the next generation. I gained so much, so much, from this sport. I won't say my life of 15 years 10 months and 9 days a waste or a failure because of all I've got.

Now that I've said this, I wish for those who thinks that life sucks. Look for something that you have done that signifies your significance in your life. If you have inspired someone, you can do it again, be it the fact that you know or not, despite the amount. Look back at your goals, look back at your achievements. There will be something you are proud of that you can hold on to. Sure there will be ups and downs in life but to overcome them is another thing altogether. If you hold on, you will prevail.

-NIQUE-



TALK ABOUT "CHINESE DRAMA"

Hello!

Yesterday, I just finished watching a chinese drama. It's called "天下第一". The reason I watched it is because my sister's new idol acts in that show. I like the show. It's funny and it's in 古装.

I'm halfway through another chinese drama and it's called "八仙全传". I watched it for the same reason. This one is also in 古装 but is more interesting than funny and my stupid computer just dun wana load the videos...

There's another one I wana watch but haven't come out yet. Probably end of year? This one's called "欢乐元帅". Also for the same reason and also in 古装. And this one is funny.

As you can probably see, I like watching chinese dramas. Reason:
1) They are very intsresting.
2) They are in 古装.
3) They have really good actors.

I don't know why, actually I do, actors here are so different from actors overseas. I'm not critisizing actors here but everytime I watch drama from here, I feel more like I am watching the actors rather than watching the character that the actors are supposed to be acting. And sometimes, when it's just an advertisment or a preview, I can see how unreal and forced it is. That is actually one of the reason I stopped watching dramas here since P5 which was... 4 years ago. That is, until "边缘父子".

Still, another big problem is nowadays, people here don't really know how to speak chinese properly. Non-chinese aside cause they don't have to.

I am not going to hide this fact but because I know I will feel really bad if I say it out so I'm typing it down:
I feel really embarassed when I go out with you guy and you all had to request others to speak in english and when you guys speak in chinese, it's total crap.
It's like they can speak chinese better that you guys. I know you all would say that if you can speak but cannot write, you still fail. It's true but I would say, if you learn a language, you should be able to speak in it fluently with proper pronounciation and write proper sentence in it. But of course I won't say that because I am not that good yet. However, what I will say is, you are a chinese and you are disgracing yourself if you do not speak proper chinese even if you know how to write in chinese.

OK, I won't deny that I am a pro-chinese and I feel proud that my ancestors are from China and that my dad is not from here. Most importantly, I feel proud to be a chinese.

I can understand that you guys don't speak chinese because of your families but requesting other people to speak in english is-as I interprete it- telling them that you don't know how to speak in chinese which brings back my point of disgracing yourself. Seriously, even students from schools that are not as good as ours can speak chinese better than you guys.

My first impression of our school is "chinese speaking school". After I came in, I never used chinese to talk other than in chinese lesson/to chinese teachers or talking to people that came from China. Frankly speaking, I felt disappointed but it's good in a sense that my english did improve because of that.

It dosn't only happen to you guys and do NOT think that my whole famile speaks chinese. My cousins doesn't. I was very fustrated after hearing what my aunt said. The story goes like this:
I share the same chinese tuition teacher as my that cousin. So one day during my tuition, my teacher told me that my cousin always speaks in english. She replies you in english when you ask or talk to her in chinese. I made a note to tell my aunt the next time she comes to my house. After I told her, she reprimanded my cousin. Of course I suggested that they start speaking in chinese, at least when other people talk to them in chinese. The reply I got was what ticked me off. It was from my aunt after she scolded my cousin. This is what she said: "no lah, we are an english-speaking family."
Now YOU tell me how her scolding is going to work on her daughter. How will she improve? And WHAT is the point of sending her for CHINESE tuition?
English-speaking family because the dad is not of chinese roots, fine. But sending her to chinese tuition and refusing to speak in chinese? RUBBISH. A waste of money. Might as well change your mother tongue to english.

Let me say this again. I am proud to be a chinese. Next time if I have a house, I'm gona put a sign that says: No Entering If You Don't Speak Chinese When You Are A Chinese Unless You Are Not A Chinese. And that includes relatives.

I really hope that you guys can at least not show how bad your chinese is in the form of oral communication. At least learn to understand what they are saying in chinese. I don't want to feel embarrased because of that. I really don't want to. If I were from a school that is not as good as our school, I would fell like punching your face. I would be thinking that you guys are freaking "high class" people that looks down on us because you think that chinese is "low class" language. I don't mean that is real. Just what I would be thinking.

Then again, I do appreciate the fact that some of you speak to me in chinese. Thank you. And I really feel like scolding those that speaks weird chinese after comming to our school when they had perfect abilities to speak in chinese, no- when they spoke in perfect chinese before they entered our school.

These are just my thoughts. I could write a whole argument on it which I think I did already. I feel better now after typing it out. Hope you will consider my points?

-NIQUE-



PICTURES OF WHAT I FIND INTERESTING 1

Hey!

There is sth wrong with de posting...

The second one is just me doing work on my table and realising what a mess it was. So I took a pic of it.

ONE-SHOT

Hey guys!

I was in class the other day and I kinda let one of my classmate read my story. Ok, it was a random paragraph. So, she told me it was too discriptive and that I could use some imagery. I thought about it and realised that it was true. So one fine day on the way home in the bus a few days ago, I wrote this other short chapter which has nothing to do with my other random crappy stories. It's a one-shot. So, on with it! Enjoy!
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Leonard leaned on the sofa. He switch on the TV.The programme that appeared on the screen was a soap opera which was a top hit in the area recently.

He liked the show. He love how the plot went. The villians being the most hated and irritating people, the good were constantly bullied and betrayed... It was cliché, but that's what he liked: pridictable yet complicated. His favourite actor, as predicted, is the most beautiful girl in the show. Although he knew her features were enhanced by the make up applied on her face, he still think that her original no-make-up features were actually that sharp.

Just then, she made her appearence on screen. He took in every detail of her face, every detail of her dress and every detail of her posture. He have to admit, it was her posture that made her so attractive... inviting...

"What are you looking at, idiot?" A hand pushed his head, making him jerk. A body flipped over the sofa and flopped down beside him.

"Quovy (AN: It's pronounced "ko-vee")... I'm hundred percent sure that you know what I'm looking at, " he grumbled.

Whack!

"Ou! That hurts." He gave her a hurtful look.

Whack!

"Hey! What was that for? You can't be jealous of a TV girl, can you?"

She crossed her arms and turned away. Sheesh! Why are girls so sensative sometimes? He mover himself closer to her and place his hands on her shoulders. She wanted to shrug him off but thought against it. She was just playing with him. She wasn't really jealous or anything, she just wanted to teach him a lesson for being so horny. He pulled her closer to him so that she is practically lying on his side.

"Come on Quovy, you know that she's just my... um... idol... She's different from you. I can't live without you baby. You know that right? I will always love you," he started.

Niqueova couldn't hold it in anymore. She burst out laughing at Leonard.

"I was just playing with you!" She chimed. Relief was evident on his face.

"Look at how you look like!" She continued to teast him. When she stopped, she met his eyes. For a momment, she thought she saw a mischievious glint in them. Oh no, please not that, pleast not that, she prayed in her heart. Without warning, his fingers were all over her, trying to get her weak spot. Once he got it, he wriggled his fingers.

"Ah! No, no! Hahaha!... N-ah! Haha... Ekk! Ok! Ok!, You win!" she screamed. He paused for a while.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

"Yes! Yes!" She laughed.

He resumed his position on the sofa with a satisfied smile. She took a while to calm down then lay her head on his thigh. They stayed in silnce while he stroked her. Leonard's idol made her second appearence on screen. She was his idol and he really admired her beauty be it enhanced in one way or not. However, there's one thing he couldn't deny: no matter how beautiful she is, she cannot be compared to Niqueova. He love Niqueova. She was there when he needed her most and she would alwasy support him no matter what he does. He couldn't live without her. It was just really... unimaginable...
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So, how was it?

The names were just random. Did I mention that I gave myself a girly name and a neutral but boyish sounding name? Well, you know my boyish sounding name (it's the one I sign off with) and my girly name is, as you've seen on top in the story, it's Niqueova. Classy. Anyway, just drop ur comments in the tag box. I'll check, don't worry.

-NIQUE-




RANDOM EPI 12

Hello again.

I haven't been doing what I should be doing lately like for one, sending u guys updates of my story... and I have been quite a dissappointment this year for a start. Bad start I suppose... It's half a year already and I still... somehow, feel like there is something holding me back. Is it a longing for something? I don't exactly know.

Maybe it's pre-exam stress or it's just some nutty part of me or it is the little child in me that's trying to break free of the constrains holding it down. I'm getting sick and tired of having to lie so many times and knowing it's because I didn't do anything that caused it to happen. Half a year seem so long now that I can't really pinpoint what is when.

Sometimes I have dremt of have super powers that allow me to relax or vent my anger with like, say, blasting random pieces of useless junk into nothingness or flying without anybody to care about. But that's not going to happen unless some random asteriod with funny acto-plasmic readings crashes straight into my room and on to me and passes some of de funny acto-plasmic thingy into me. Then, I'll probable be the first singaporean that has that kind of weird powers.
Geez... What's with me and fantasy?...

I think I am going to be a drunkard when I'm old enough. I see traits in me which may just lead to that becoming a fact... Of course there will be health implementation but it's just me I suppose... Not to mention I might just be a disappointment from now on. Wait, I am already a disappointment to my family.

Ok, I guess I'm freaking you out. Maybe it'll only last a while. Then again, humans are unpredictable.

Haha... That's enough I guess.

Good bye!

-NIQUE-



RANDOM EPI 11

I don't know what happened to my previous posts coz there's supposed to have spacing btwn each paragraph. Guess that's what happens when you edit ur blog.

Anyway, I just finished reading The Age of Five trilogy. I was told by my friends that it has a sucky ending. I think it wasn't that bad. It was... ok... I've got no other words to describe it.
Well, despite the not so nice ending, what caught me attention is the way Trudi Canavan writes. She captures me in a way that no matter how hard I try to put down the book, I just can't bring myself to put it down. I don't think she won't catch me again in her next trilogy, The Traitor Spy trilogy, no matter how boring it is. The theories that she came out with surprises me sometimes and I gotta admit that it is hard to come up with plausible reasonings and theories and possible ways of explanation. That, is 1 reason I'm so slow in my own writing. But nonetheless, I love writing because of these challenges and it is fun to psyco other ppl into believing you. haha. I am evil...BEWARE!

Looking at my sunset painting, I can't really believe that it was made by me. I didn't know that I can do something so well such that I get so many approvals from my friends. It is indeed a happy thing worthy of celebration. To tell you the truth, I didn't have enough paint to edit it so the left side of the painting look bad. The yellow didn't end properly. I didn't even know what I was doing. I made a few mistakes which became a plus point for the painting though. Haha... bet u didn't know...(:

I guess I learn fast... from my mistakes and cover them up just as fast. I think it just reflects my actions in every other aspects of my life. I'm a good liar and I don't deny that. I found out that I lie everyday on average and I lie without a blink of an eye. It would just come out smoothly. Years of practise I think...

Life's lessons always teaches us to forgive and forget. I always hope people do that but it can hardly be right without lies... I myself can't forgive people who do that.
There's another thing that I can't, or maybe cannot really, forgive and forget. That is the preechings ppl do in my face be it on the internet or in front of me. No matter the religion, I would feel irritated. I mean, if your god is so good, why don't I see everybody benifit from your god in your cult? In my eyes, preeching equates to down grading your own religion. I am saying this especially to christians coz u ppl love to preech so much it hurts my ears. Sorry. No harm intended.

I should stop. Least anyone gets angry. But this is how I feel and there's no changing it. The more you preech, the more I will hate your religion. Really. It has this opposite effect on me.

I should end my post here. Go think about it. I am serious about the preeching thing.

Bye.

-NIQUE-



RANDOM EPI 10 Happy 10th/Double-Digit Random Post! It is my 1oth random episode! Wow. I love number #11. It brings back a lot of memories n well, let's just say I have an affinity with this number (: Serious bittersweet instances, both are, but ah well, life goes on. Suddenly, I dun feel much desire to post. Must be the post-exam period when the stress level goes down... hm......... Havin Chocettes Black Forest........... I think Ryan Higa is freakin cool n he does look kinda 帅... Really... I practically laughed at every single one of his videos. Haha... now I'm a fan of his! Of course, my biggest idol is still Jesse McCartney... hahahahahahahahaha..... Anyway, I'm readin a book: Priestess of the White. I think it's ok but my sis said there's "不良内容" in it so er... dun tell my sis I'm readin it. She won't read my blog... I'm pretty sure...I'm sure... I'm kinda... I'm not really... I'm not... Oh I'm sure she won't read my blog... Heh heh... Havin a match tmr with SCGS... Gonna be a tough fight. Congrads to netballers! 加油 in your upcomming matches! Have a peaceful and pleasant day! -NIQUE-